Saturday 30 March 2013

Happy Easter ...


Did you ever make an Easter resolution?
I so far did not. New Year's resolution and plans for the coming year, yes, but for Easter?
But this year, I came to the realisation, after "The Hobbit. An Unexpected Journey", I just miss Lucas North too much and need to come back to him.
Yes, the separation from him in "Intrigue" was too much for me to bear and I felt a bit unfair to dump Al Delarmy in a hotel in Hamburg.

At the moment it also looks as if I need to meet Al Delarmy in Hamburg in June anyway. Perhaps I even see him in one of his ...
- Oh, I must not tell! You still don't know ;o)

But I can divulge so much: I by chance need to go exactly where I had in my fantasy sent Al Delarmy, whithout ever knowing that I had to go exactly there myself.  (No! Oh, what do you think of me ! No, not into the famous red light district of Hamburg. I am much too harmless for that ;o)

What a coincidence you will say or perhaps life just has no coincidences, just full intentional plans we just do not understand at the time we have to go and live through them. At least I can admit, I don't understand them, but none the less, the coincidence is nice and I am looking forward to meet Al Delarmy in Hamburg in June ;o)

Hope he is not too angry with me for dumping him in that luxurious hotel and having the quarrel last time we met ;o)

I can't promise anything about how fast I will be able to continue with "Intrigue", but at least, I will try to steadily continue and build the story. So I hope you will have joy and fun following Lucas' / John's / Al's further story in "Intrigue".

Happy Easter to you all, my friends,
and have a relaxed and joyful time !

Sunday 17 March 2013

4RA-7: I Am Safe

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I am safe from my own expectations

With the safety distance of fandom between fan and idol, there is also a safety net for myself.
The fan-dream allows me to become the person I would like to be, if I were not such a complex, difficult, sensitive and diversely reacting person that I am.

In reality, I would have to cope with reactions to myself, with my efforts to prove myself, my worth, my value to others.

In fan-dream, I just can step over this preliminary and exhausting and mostly not even fulfilling experience and right get to the point of creative completion of muse and inspiration, of admiration without the connotation of weakness or the necessity to fight for a strong position in a relationship or being walked over or used as foot-rag, just because of not wanting to fight or continuously prove strength to keep up one’s position and get much needed attention.

On an emotional level, it is so healing for me, so reassuring that the world consists of more than the narrow minded fights all around.

Fandom came to me at a time where I clearly needed a positive outlook
and last and this year’s happenings in fandom strengthened my wish to focus on the positive and distance myself from destructive influences.

I am strong in the things I believe in and I fight (not against someone, but with strong effort on my side) for the things I believe in.

I no longer have the belief that I need to correct somebody, if ever I had that belief, but think only your own mind can set you free or enslave you.

Though not all and everything in the world is reachable, you won’t know if you don’t try.

For a free fandom and free space to develop and expand creativeness, for an open community allowing to try.

Signed: The radical at heart CDoart ;o)

I hope you enjoyed FanstRAvaganza 4 - which is now coming to an end.

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Saturday 16 March 2013

4RA-6: The Distinct Advantage of RA

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The distinct advantage of RA compared to other men

I already started to explain RA’s main attraction points in my last post.
But what set him so completely apart was something Servetus and her excruciatingly honest self- and fan-analysis alerted me to.

He was not real.

Yes, I know, he is real, and I am certainly heavily in the group suffering APM (= Armitage Protection Mode).
But to some extent he just isn’t, at least for me.

He is safe,
as he does not really come near me, know about me or can hurt me.
So my fantasy world about him is safe, I am safe and still can feel enormously inspired by what he does and how he does it.

Lately someone asked me how I would behave in a red-carpet event meeting him. My answer was ‘I wouldn’t’.
Because, if I can, I would avoid the spectacle, the frenzy, the showing and openly expressing of my feelings of admiration.
That would throw me out into something I just am not and would make me into something I would not like to be. Something I fear, as I couldn’t control it and would need only to react to a surrounding I would not like to be part of.
I am no fodder for the masses, don’t like to be used and would not like to lose my identity and only be a number and I certainly would feel that way there.
It would make it into something real, something depressingly real, something entirely un-safe.

In contrast on KRA, though showing the signatures in totals and numbers, the lovely feedback we receive shows that people all over the world come together in support of the film. A multitude of motives, aspects of interests, personalities and just absolutely wonderful supporters assemble there.
And all in support of one brilliant man, attracting all this attention.
I can’t see this variety as pure numbers and customers of fan-devotionalia, while standing around a red carpet, I would feel like a number, a space filler somehow.
Would have to be myself, my real self and would feel completely lost ;o)

The variety in fandom is the reason, why I am active part of this fandom, why I support the KingRichardArmitage initiative for the film “Richard III” and why I can’t get enough of Richard Armitage - in my safe fantasy world ;o)

Enjoy the variety and broad bandwidth of fandom in FanstRAvaganza 4 !

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Friday 15 March 2013

4RA-5: What Makes RA so Interesting ?

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What makes RA so interesting as a person, not only as an actor, that I am interested in his views and answers?

Before I start with analyzing this question, I must state, that especially from men (except perhaps my father and my professor and a very limited few) I rarely got useable feedback, support or anything close to a constructive answer to a question.
Men usually were causing more problems than they solved and needed someone to repair the mess they left in their wake. You see, my opinion of men is not the best.

This was the reason, why my fandom to RA came as a complete and utter surprise to me, which I still could not entirely solve.

That I am not only interested in RA’s roles and outlook, but also his opinion, was quite clear to me right up from the start, as I did not fall for him because of his skill in a role, but because of him answering tricky interview questions.

 But what set him apart, what made me so deeply fall under his spell?

What certainly came to his advantage was that I was surfing for video instructions and completely unaware and unprepared for the power of his spell.
Unsuspecting as I had been, I fell before I even knew what had happened.
But still … - it was not his appearance, which made me a fan and gripped me without return.

It was his polite way.

That certainly set him apart from the men I knew. Only few were polite and those who were, generally wanted to trick you out of something, to give up information, do their work, play you in front of your boss/professor, etc.

So for once there was a man where I could drop my defense shield and just listen to what he had to say. And he did not need to trick somebody else out of something or to grow by grinding somebody else into the ground to have something to say, but had an opinion and backbone of his own.

I hope you now see more clearly, why I had to make these excursions in my research, why I especially want to ask RA questions, though I am notoriously curious as well, but then mostly go my own way to research till I am content ;o)
And as typical historian, as a friend of me once said: A historian believes that every problem is not entirely unique and so if encountering a problem, he goes to the next library and searches for a solution ;o)

I am still not entirely finished with my research and now will come closer to my position, why I so especially need 'phantasy RA' for my questions.

Have fun with FanstRAvaganza 4 and enjoy all the diverse posts !

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Thursday 14 March 2013

4RA-4: Why Do I Want to Ask Questions

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Why do I want to ask RA questions ?

  • Because he played roles so excellently that I really would like to know how he made them plausible to himself to be able to make them work for his audience as well.
  • Because the preparation for the roles he plays seems so complete that I would like to know what he makes of the roles and adds in explanations and background to make them work – for himself and for the audience.

When I during my studies, had access to cheap tickets, I nearly weekly went to the theatre to see productions. Often I could not make sense of what they wanted to tell me. With RA playing a role, it is easier to get the message and meaning, even really difficult, emotion racking ambiguity works with him.

  • What is the difference here and there? What makes this work beyond the hints the script, set and artifacts give?
  • Why does a scene even work, when RA does nothing more than let a smile shine through his eyes, while his face remains impassive (or rather needs to remain passive, because it is covered with prosthetics like in the Hobbit, where the smile intoxicated me so much that I forgot to be attentive for quite a while and now urgently need to see the Hobbit a third time to catch up on the scenes I missed two times)?

But this all still does not answer the question, why I especially would like to get the answers from RA.

  • Because I think he is sensitive and thoughtful enough to have really interesting answers.
  • Because he takes the time to think his answers through and not just does something to please the audience, but also himself and his high standards.
  • Because he does not do it for the greatest marketing effect, though marketing for an actor necessarily must be part of it, but to be content with what he did.

As this is such a strong aspect for me in my life, this might be a point where I over-interpret RA’s previous interviews and his answers. Still his behavior in interviews is surprisingly different and refreshing.

My questions and analysis is far from finished and I will go deeper over the next few days of FanstRAvaganza 4.

Have a nice and enjoyable FanstRAvaganza 4 event !

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Wednesday 13 March 2013

4RA-3: Questions 2 about Richard III

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No, nothing like if he killed his nephews.

If I believed King Richard III really did it, I would rather ask how or why he thought it to help his position and prestige as king, when I see it so much as an error for him from all perspectives.
I have clear doubts here that he did it, but not for being a ‘Ricardian’ (which I am not) or only wanting him to be good, but for psychological reasons.

For one, I see the king as an intelligent man and I just can’t imagine, he did not come to the same conclusion that the disappearance would hurt his position as king. He was their uncle after all, if they were legitimate or not and as such responsible for them. To lose them just is no good style for an uncle. (That reminds me of my own nephew. I think my sister would kill me in return ;o) Preferably in a very slow and extremely hurtful way.)

For another, the one with the best and strongest motive in police investigations rather rarely is the culprit, as his interests are much too obvious to allow him to act upon them. They are obvious for everyone to see and deduct the logical consequences.
This leads to the strange situation that the strongest opponents might act as the fiercest protectors, just because of this reasoning.
While not so blatantly obviously interested parties, normally the second, but often even in the third or fourth position of motive strength, feel safe enough to act upon their baser motives.

I know that is no proof, but at least shows why I doubt.

Whereas I don’t doubt, that King Richard III clearly calculated all (!) his options and was well aware of advantage and risk.
A crime executed in the head, is it still or yet a crime in itself?

NPG 148; King Richard III by Unknown artist
(Source: National Portrait Gallery)

My questions to RA now would be:

  • What aspect of King Richard III especially can fascinate an actor?
  • What advantage has Shakespeare’s Richard III character compared to the ‘real’ (or historically reconstructed) one?
  • What can a film do to a king who is already famous? – Or should I rather say notorious?
  • What influence would you as actor like to give Richard III’s wife Anne Neville over him? (As very little is known about her and her relationship to her husband, this aspect leaves quite a lot of space for interpretation.)
  • Is Richard III a driven or a reacting figure? Driven by greed or acting out of necessities put upon him?
  • Is Richard III personally strong or weak and why?
  • What in your opinion makes Richard III act in the way he does?
  • What in his background / education / upbringing / influences / … leads him to become such a different character / morally settled person compared to his older brother Edward IV?
  • What kingly abilities of Edward IV does Richard III miss?
  • Why does Richard III’s relationship to his eldest brother work though their large age difference and their opposite characters and approach to life and moral?

And here I really need to forcefully stop myself, otherwise we would sit here till next year’s FanstRAvaganza 5 ;o)

I very much hope you enjoy the event ! Till tomorrow, with more musings, why I just can't stop asking questions ;o)

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Tuesday 12 March 2013

4RA-2: Selection 1 of Fan-Questions

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One thing that absolutely fascinates me about RA and his preparation for film roles is his creation of stories and biographies and background for his characters. That he has these background stories, predestines him to answer most of my questions I have for him playing certain roles, more so than the scriptwriters themselves, as they make up a story, but what interests me much more is, how he made these stories work, how to get the feeling of a plausible flesh and bone character out of their raw material.
This is the pre-condition for most of my questions and why they are directed at RA.

Today, I will start with a selection for “The Hobbit” and “Spooks”:

What I would like to ask Thorin Oakenshield: 
Though I gladly admit, "The Hobbit" is not my strong part with questions, so it was a good point to start with only a few  ;o)
  • Why undertake a quest without closer research about the dangers, conditions of the way and the situation with the dragon? Why go in so unprepared and only rely on Gandalf as backup and rescue?
  • Why not search for his father first?
  • Why not ask Gandalf about what he knows, but only take him as a granted help?
  • How does RA legitimise Thorin’s behaviour for leading his nephews into almost certain death?
  • What is the misbehaviour of Thorin at the end which legitimises his loss in battle / in his honour and consequently his death? Is the loss at battle parallel to his error and misbehaviour in other areas?
  • Does RA believe in this parallelism of the one who is right wins and the one who is wrong looses in a battle?
  • At what time would he see that way of thinking to have been common and why does he support the continuation of such a thought system?
  • What does “The Hobbit” has to tell youths and adults today and what does he think Tolkien wanted to achieve with portraying such an ancient believe system?
  • The Hobbit does not reward effort, but for every success a lot of magic and outsider's influence is needed, not only one’s own abilities, work and effort. This is rather a fate-belief than based on the own ability to change the destiny. How can this inspire young people to become strong and hard working, upright people?
  • Why is Bilbo the hero, while he steals and betrays his friends? Are those the elements Tolkien wanted to show his children as the right behaviour in the world?
  • Why is it necessary for Bilbo to support Thorin’s enemies, when Thorin is completely aware of the loss the city endured because of the dragon and wants to recompense them? What gain does this turn of the story give to the audience?
  • Why does it need to be half the bounty, which has been accumulated for generations by the dwarves, when the other recipients did nothing either to help fight the dragon nor to accumulate the wealth? Should that tell us that force and not hard work gets the easier reward? (If we see our banking crisis, I don’t think children need a further example in that regard to get the idea that hard work is not popular.)
  • Why do the dwarves not deserve their own hoard after their long exile, but are seen as greedy that they want their home back and revenge because nobody helped them in their legitimate fight or during their exile?
  • Why can Tolkien and his event driven writing style especially fascinate boys?

What I would like to ask RA in his roles as Lucas North:

One of my main characters and roles of RA I would like to grill without end, is Lucas North, rather less John Bateman, whom I just ignore somehow, but would rather accept more in a form like Al Delarmy, as he at least would have some kind of motive or answers. John Bateman for me just seems to be an empty shell not worth asking anything at all.

Already from the series 7 and 8 I have enough unanswered questions for Lucas North, but series 9 just hit it all off by not answering a single one, but just opening up a wagon load of new ones.

So here only a small selection of questions still burning inside me through all my re-watching of “Spooks”:

  • What did Lucas North do in China? Where did he get his artefacts in his flat/ apartment?
  • How long did he stay there? How well does he speak the language and which dialect and when did he have time to learn it?
  • What languages does he speak and when did he learn them?
  • What did he study at university?
  • When did he meet Maya Lahan?
  • What crime did he commit to only be imprisoned for 1 year back then when causing the separation with Maya Lahan?
  • Whom did he offend to seem to feel the need to protect Maya Lahan, but who seemed not interested enough in him to track his departure?
  • Why did the Russians not train him and give him a technical update before coming back as double agent?
  • Why does Harry Pierce have such a strained relationship to Lucas North? Why can’t he openly ask Lucas North a single question? Why is all their dialogue overshadowed by a load of different intentions, but not once a straight forward talk between two equals wanting to know the other’s answer?
  • How does Lucas North interpret the Ancient of the Days by William Blake?
  • When did Lucas North learn Greek and Latin? What education did he have?
  • How could Lucas North get the tattoos, when he was kept in isolation in the Russian prison?
  • What did the other Russian prisoners, who did the tattoos on his body, tell him about Russia, their reasons to be imprisoned, the state of the world outside of the prison, about the prison guards, the prison conditions, etc.?
  • Whom did Lucas North befriend in the Russian prison?
  • What did Lucas North do during his active time at MI5 before his imprisonment in Russia?
  • How does Lucas North react to the application of conspiracy theories? Can he fight them entirely himself? If not, which one’s does he favour / fall into, which one’s is he able to discard? How does he see their working mechanisms? What does he think about global groups like the freemasons, the French atheist sector of the freemasons, the real equivalent to the Bendorf group in Spooks, the clubs, circles and associations with an abundance of secrecy and an accumulation of too much time and money?
  • What are Lucas Norths’s goals in life? (For me, he does not clearly have any in Spooks, not in the series 7 + 8, nor in series 9.) Maya Lahan here is no goal – as she comes in so late and because she seems rather a method than a goal to me.

You see, Lucas North would have no silent second around me, as this is only a small selection.
And I must say, Harry Pierce really did a bad job interrogating him and getting out no real information.

Now I obviously did ask too many questions ;o)

Tomorrow, I will go over to King Richard III and afterwards more to analyse my approach than adding further unanswered / unanswerable questions.

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Monday 11 March 2013

4RA-1: Fan & Fan-Questions

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Some time ago, I came up with the idea to collect questions (while I already have a bulk of them regarding “Spooks”).
But why do I want to ask Richard Armitage questions and would like to know the answers, when I don’t bother with asking other men?

Before I start deeper in my journey of discovery into this question, I must add that this all for me is a very (extremely strong !) hypothetical question, because I don’t believe that I will ever ask the questions for real and I am not even sure that I want to ask Richard Armitage those questions!

Have I confused you enough by now?   

Fine, then we can start with my further discovery into this question during this following FanstRAvaganza week.

For me, it is something different to ask a ‘professional’ question about King Richard III, as I did just now via the digital distance of Twitter

(Though it was not answered – but did I really expect it would be?
Not really, after already hundreds of questions before and thousands after mine.
And the question per se is not answerable in 140 signs or 140 sign-bits and furthermore is not at a stage to be answered or allowed to be answered in a ‘The Hobbit’ context.)

But with those questions I enlist here in the next posts, I would rather like to hear the opinion of RA, without him needing to think about the marketing of a film or check his answers in regard of a financier. So this whole premise could only take place in a very hypothetical environment not likely to ever happen or even exist, but which can be enacted in a fictitious part of my mind.

Because the RA I ask these questions is fictional for me and so can become a version of a man I would like to talk to, while in real life those men I can talk to are really numbered and I can count them on one hand and do not even need all fingers. (As one of them already is my father, men in my acquaintance I find worth to talk to and their answers I deem something worth to get, are really few.)

How do I envision RA to answer those questions? I think the new interview in Lorraine’s Show last Wednesday (06.03.2013) with his lovely attentive and oh so ‘understanding’ attitude, came very close to my ideal of attentive listening. The attention he gives his partner in the discussion, is addictive, the understanding he expresses or seems to project (I have no idea if it is real or just a very good way to encourage the interlocutor), but it seems to work perfectly at all times and certainly has its effect on me.

Own screenshot - I know it's a bit fuzzy, but I want exactly that moment.
(Source: Lorraine's Show (06.03.2013) shared by

Still, I see this whole topic of really asking RA questions as very hypothetical, as RA would break out of the frame I gave him access to in my life and would from fictional character suddenly become real, if I really should meet him to ask those questions.

During the week, I will examine more, what that for me would mean. I hope, at the end of the week you will know more about why I fear that and so can’t imagine myself standing at a red carpet event or another event where I would meet RA in a fan-encounter.
But under this premise, I can fantasise about asking questions and in the next posts can start with a few of the questions I would like answers to.

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